I’ve had an emotionally draining week. There are many situations & circumstances that are weighing heavily on me right now. I don’t need to go into the details of why here, but as I’m processing all the emotions I’m experiencing, I’m reminding of a few lines in a song by Andy Park.
“I can’t understand all that You allow – I just can’t see the reason”
All too often I find myself stopping at this point. I focus on trying to figure out why on earth God could possibly be allowing me to go through what I’m going through. Am I to blame? Did I do something wrong? Am I not praying hard enough, or am I praying for the wrong things?
Today, as I was talking with my friend Eva on the phone, I was sharing how I just need to remember the next line of the song:
“But my life is in Your hands, and though I cannot see You, I choose to trust You“
Trusting God is a choice. It doesn’t come naturally to me, and I imagine I’m not alone in that. But I’ve found that God has always shown Himself to be faithful. I have no choice but to believe that this time will be no exception.
So today, God, I choose to trust in the knowledge that You are the Rock, Your works are perfect, and all Your ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is what You are (Deuteronomy 32:4). Today, I choose to rest in You. There’s nowhere else I’d rather be.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30